Appreciation

Not everyone given a chance to get well education. If you are one of them who are very lucky to get those privileges, be thankful. Your parents put their hardwork just to give you the best education you can ever imagine. Put you into the best school in town, raise you up with everything you need though they put their wants aside. Just to make you their number one.

Appreciate them. Do good in your life. Prove them that you are worth enough to get their full attention. Make them proud. Always make them proud.

At the end, your family, especially your parents, are the ones who always back you up.

And so I write it down because I really appreciate my parents and my family. I respect them by always trying to do good in my life.

So must you.

In Memoriam

Goodbye Grandma, sleep well tonight

Dream of all your younger days

Way before time had left you sad

And store yourself away

'Cause I remember you

Just as you always used to be

Before time had taken toll

And stole you away from me

And I wish I could stop time tonight

And hold the whole world still

And keep you here forever

To be mine

And I wish the world was different

And I could hold you in my arms

And I keep you here forever

For all time

'Cause Grandma, I can sail the seven seas

I could take a rocket to the moon

But everywhere I go

You would be there too

And I'd be right there with you

Sleep well tonight

Sleep well tonight

- Elton John -

In Memoriam, Maria Theresia Mulyati Widjaja

(February 8, 2012 - February 8, 2013)

One year has marked today you passed away.

I still love you to the soul.

Sunday!

People, meet Fenny, cousin by marriage :)

She is my sister's husband's cousin.

Dumpyeng

I love when people call me Dumpyeng, I feel like my late Grandparents call me all the time.
I miss you both to the very bones.

Family

Ohana means family. Family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten. I wish I could describe how important my family is.

That May Never Come

My Mom once said that greet every morning with open arms and say thanks every morning and night for the great life. Each day is a precious gift from God to be used, not left unopened for future that may never come. Live today.

My King

I may find a prince one day, but Dad, you are always be my King.
I love you to the bones.

I Really Cared

Dear Grandma and Grandpa,

How are you?
I hope both of you are fine. I am fine here.

I never be brave enough to go back to your bedroom. I don't know why but somehow it hurts.
I wonder where you keep your wings, are they hung in your closet with the rest of your things?
I know for sure you have wings like in the movies, for this must be true,
because God always gives them to angels just like you.

It has been five months since the day you passed away, Grandma. And it's been eighteen years since the day God called you home, Grandpa.
I lost two people I care most and it feels like an eternity to me.
I wish you had stayed with me. I wish I could share my stories with you.

I long to hear your voices say my name and hold my hand as you both always had.
My heart aches so bad. I know you would say, please don't be sad.
But, I still sit and wonder, if you both knew I was here and how much I really cared.

I will go to your graves before my departure, to say good bye for the second time that I will move for good.

I love you.

Dearly.

My Dearests

Dearest Grandparents,

Last night, when I was alone in my square, I remember both of you.
I think about you all the time and everyday it's getting hurt to cry.
So many things happened in my life since you've passed away,
I am not so sure how hard to try and struggle by my own.

I feel alone and tears were falling,
In the same time, I laugh but I cry deep down inside.
My heart hurts everyday.
I think about your beautiful smile and kind hugs,
That I pray to see you someday, even in a shortest dream.

The sweet smell of your perfume has slowly faded away
But all of your helpful teachings and wise words are always in my heart to stay.
Since the day you passed away, I never have a courage to come to your room.
It hurts to the very core.

I can't express how much I love you both,
I can't explain.
I am a woman without words.
I can only remember you and my love is pure.

So many hearts were broken, mine is the worst.
The day God called you home.
It seems as thought each one of us were left to survive alone.

I know there must be a reason that you had to leave.
To keep us in your watchful eyes, so now in God I really do believe.
Take care there, I wish you both were with me when I am living my life in a full bloom.
I miss you.
I do really miss you.

:'(

You know I love you too much.

That Are Gone

When someone you love most dies, and you are not expecting it, you thought she was just fine.
When someone you love most dies, you don't lose her all at once, you lose her piece by piece over a very long time.
Her scent fades from the pillows and even from the clothes in her closet and drawers.
And gradually, you accumulate the parts of her that are gone.

I still miss you, Grandma.
I still.

The Rumambis

Knowing my family so well

and I can tell you who is coming down by the sounds of their footsteps.

It is a talent.

For sure :)

I love you.